A lie nvr works alone. It needs an act to it. Acting for more than half a day daily is seriously a pain. Not being able to be yourself with people you trust. Having to hold in opinions and screamings. Its very tiring. Painful and tiring.

Then again, facing reality is also painful. Its like this world itself is simply a mess.

Well, given how god wants to torture me, I can't really do anything about it.

I think you can only be honest with yourself when you know the people around you accept you. Only then is it less painful to be yourself. To be honest. If you ask me to be an idiot in front of a crowd. WHom probably I will nvr see 99% of their faces again. I dare to do it. But if its in front of classmates. or friends. I might end up being more reserve. Unless its friends I have truely opened up to. Very few. None of them are guys though. All Girls. <3 Girls power rock haha.

No la, I think more of girls are much more mature and understanding. >.<
Rather than guys who can only think in 1 straight line except when playing games or politics.

Also, I seriously hate the singapore society. Is gender really that important?

Well in some ways yes, but seriously, that is simply what is driving me nuts.

Sigh.

Then also, another saddening thing.

Then again I'm seriously stupid.

There's this cute guy @ the card shop near my place. Honestly he's a cute guy. Abit beng ah. But pretty and cute face. Lovely eyes.

Yes, I often visit the shop for eye candy.

The Joke.

He visits the yogurt shop a min walk away almost daily for eye candy. Damn that girl. -.- Steal my lovely eye candy away >.< =3=

Yes, And I do get jealous very easily. Though I try too keep it under hoods. Cuz I just have to act. Back to all that painful acting. Lying to people and yourself. SIgh.

Stress pain rejection >.<

Sometimes I just hope that my prince charming would just pop up and <3

but ya, I wun let that prince charming into my room for the time being. Mess haha.

>.<